mary j,

i feel silly when you passss my way.









today is beautiful out and all i am doing is tanning and listening to sublime,adtr and havin a chll day with an ice teaaaaa

welcome to paridise.

GOT MY GREENDAY TICKETS.
LOOKIN FORWARD TO GETIN BAKED AS FUCK WITH RANDOM DEADBEATS
AND ENJOYING SOME OF THE BEST OLDSCHOOL BEATS OF MY LIFE.

good beats

i've finally realized how good mushroom soup is on a cold,rainy day!

everyday i see my dream

it's been a damn while since i've touched this blogger shiiiit, i actually realized i missed my random chances to rant and all that lovely stuff.
lately people have been giving me a hard time about seeing a dude,and what not.
fuck offffffffffff


also, i am working on making a tshirt for charity,
all the money will be headed towards rwanda for women saftey and hopefully i'll somehow get enough to send to romeo delair for his project involiving child soldiers across the world.

all of this stuff is super sad,which brings me down my self.
but every little bit counts.
moneymoneymoney.
if i had my way, i'd pay for my simplest living and the rest of my money would be spent on women saftey in rwanda and the after affect of the genocide there.
efffffffffff.


i can dream cant i?

don't blink,they won't even miss you at all.

summer 09'
warped tour,travel,camp,fun,flirt,drunk,stoned,
skate boarderrrssssssss,river,shows, art,apartment,
work.






god, i cannot fucking wait

you make me strong

i can't even explain how happy i am rightnow,with where i am and all.

no matter what i want,i can't have it. i push and strive for it.
but it never comes.
it's always just out of arms reach.
angsty,confused,angered,lazy,rude,procrastinator,changed,selfish,cocky,not genuine,loveless,mean,not the same, out of the ordinary.


keep it coming,i'm waiting for the day where i'm actually happy and i can rub it in everyones face.


i need new people in my life.

this could be anywhere in the world

i dont know what i want.
i know where i am,i dont want anyone to get hurt.
but i feel what i'm doing could create a storm!

"you're a real piece of work kendra"
if i were to write a metaphor about me and how i am, it would have to deal with a puzzle.
a wize and colorful puzzle with missing pieces and jagged ends.

i don't know the first thing about love.

thrices new cd is completely different than their other stuff.
its not bad.
just different.
i can't decide wether i really really like it or not.


things seem to be so complicated for me.
dropping classes,one by one.
down to two,or three.
well i really dont know.


i only really look forward to the future and what it brings.
i can't wait to get out of here.
i can't wait to be done, for good.
i want to move on with my life, and move away from this shity town.

as of

lately i've been overly fond of thrice and mushroom soup.

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sometimes i wonder if i do the things i do becuase i'm expecting something to change,something to be exciting. yet when these things happen, nothing changes for me.
im not excited,enthused, or amused.
i don't know how to sort these things out.
on the plus side,the only thing keeping me at bowman is the amazing psychology teacher. bless him

i don't know how to feel

but i know when im with you i feel something real good.

no hype

im sick
im tired
and i am a flirt

hey girl.

i made the right decision.
i will keep reminding my self of that.
because you're garbage.

lately.

i am a different person.
i switched schools last minute,and have zero guilt doing it.
i quit basketball, some say i fucked up.
some say i made the right choice for myself.
i want to be happy again.

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i really dont know what i want anymore.
i get my camera tomorrow hopefully, some piercings this week as well. a bit of a new wardrobe, dro with jess/party time.
only work saturday (BULLSHIT).
quit basketball.


life is moving along.

actfast! is brilliance

also,
i enjoy my ex boyfriend a great deal.

lol

fates on my side this time around.

+

I'll show you the way to go

p.s

you can't handle me.

dear boy.

i am so glad things played out how they did,
i don't want you after some sleezy drag.
and p.s
you're not waldo.

love

cheek piercings and canon cameras.

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as much as we are, we will not be as much as we are

all i want

is a cannon rebel and some money.
i figure i'll live at home while attending hair school
and hopefully get the hell out of the city shortly after.